I love coding and expressing myself online; it’s one of my favorite hobbies and a massive destresser. However, I have run into a problem. I’ve managed to attract a lot of the wrong crowds to this website. It’s kind of hard to “express myself” when I am always seemingly walking on eggshells.
I feel like common sense is lost on the internet. You can’t question anything without getting severe backlash or suffering consequences as bad as even losing your job.
Generally I don’t really feel comfortable on this site given that and the drama I was recently involved with. I don’t really wish to be associated with the toxic Twitter/Tumblr crowd, label hoarders…. you get it. I don’t have millions of labels or fifty self diagnosed mental disorders or really anything else that would garner me significant attention online. I’m honestly just some woman; as boring and average as that makes me in comparison. It kind of blows my mind that I managed to attract these types despite having nothing in common with them. I’m kind of tired of quietly complying and trying to be someone I’m not just for the sake of fitting in. And fitting in with who? People I have no true interest in associating with anyways. I left social media to express my views freely and break free from this conformist web culture and for what? Just to end up back in that position again. I would rather associate with people whose entire existences aren't consumed by pointless things like identity politics or shipping discourse.
I’m going to be blunt, I really don’t like a lot of the people on here. Dreamie is one of the most obvious examples; no life outside of stupid online discourse (about shipping of all things), obsessed with her collection of nonsensical “identities” that you are not allowed to question no matter what, pretending to be part of groups which she isn’t, and completely devoid of empathy like many other people in this generation (throwing around “kill yourself”s to anybody she had even the most trivial issues with).
Bigger reasons aside, I’ve grown out of the scene/alternative nostalgia type of aesthetic that attracted so many people to my website anyways. I feel like Vixie was a somewhat shallow website. Sure it had a cute aesthetic, but I feel like it had little or no substance.
Anyways, off to a fresh start. Later.